Dear Derek, 

     I don’t really understand why this is happening right now. I think about you more than I ever did before. Its only been three days, almost four and I just don’t know how I am surviving with out you. I miss you holding my hand when I least expected it. I miss our talks about the stupidest stuff before we go to bed at night. I miss you taking your turn to make a bottle for the baby. He holds it himself now, well half holds it, he’s so funny. I am seeing your family a lot more, they make things a lot easier for me. Well your dad isn’t my number one fan, I don’t know how to go about that. Your brother is talking to me so I’ll get back soon…. Yeah soooo I miss you is the bottom line. 

<3 Ashlee